I first began writing at around the age of ten or eleven and it has given my life meaning and pleasure ever since. Though I harbour faint ambitions of making it big, I am under no illusions about how difficult it actually is, and perhaps always was, to make it big as a writer. Thus, my motivation for writing is driven by something deeper than the chance of mere success (whatever that term means).
I have come to the realization that writing, for me, is primarily a metaphysical act - a means through which I attempt to make sense of Being, a method through which I try to address ontological and ethical issues. Naturally, I welcome and strive to create possibilities to have others read my work, but my gut instinct tells me that I should remain faithful to the nature of what I am doing and not sully the waters by reaching into areas that extend beyond the realm of writing with the fleeting hope that such efforts might yield a wider readership, attention, fame, etc. I have entertained options of utilizing social media and perhaps dipping into YouTube, but I am convinced such ventures would not only yield minimally tangible results, but might also corrupt the pleasure and meaning I get from writing itself. Part of me is terrified by the unlikely possibility that an expanded platform might yield success because, as far as I can tell, success in writing has not always been beneficial to writers!
Put succinctly, I have decided that I want to focus on being a writer, nothing more. I have no desire to become a witty wag on Twitter, another face in the ocean of faces on YouTube, or post images of myself on Instagram or whatever they call it. I don't want to brand myself and all of the rest of that marketing baloney. I would rather reserve that time for the writing itself and maintain a presence on sites more or less dedicated to books and writing. If any increased success is to come, it will have to originate from there.
At least, that is what my gut is telling me. And I have learned that ignoring what my gut tells me rarely leads me places I truly wish to be.